To borrow from the nearly obsolete, crayola-inspired Threat Level System from The Department of Homeland Security, I’d say this weekend pushed me out of a blissful blue and into an overwhelming orange.
Last night was a challenging evening for me from an emotional standpoint. Dinner discussion pretty much opened the Pandora’s box of my apparently fragile psyche and cut what should have been a fantastic evening, painfully short. Stress from my past primary relationship, FTP/house, and upcoming IM events, has been piling up. I had been doing my best to ignore all of it as much as possible. Events and discussions over the last few days made it clear to me that I needed to start dealing with my personal challenges much more directly or, like a nagging injury, things would start to compound and haunt me for much longer than they should.
A couple of specific areas that require my attention and some improvement:
- More effectively balance should do’s, need to do’s, and want to do’s.
- Be intentional about addressing my past primary relationship.
- Reserve and allow myself some protected space (physically & mentally) in which to process and work through uncomfortable emotions and unproductive thoughts.
- Mentally commit to either doing IM Louisville or to not doing it.
